tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19390590517124690832012-02-16T16:45:12.034-08:00killerMy true Feelings in thIs FuckIng lifE of my own!!!!Lon3ly Noobzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02915406489436831144noreply@blogger.comBlogger81100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1939059051712469083.post-2117779467502605482009-09-20T10:18:00.000-07:002009-09-20T10:26:00.804-07:00I'm FeEling It Aga!n<span style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);"><span style="font-style: italic;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">this is happening again...<br />history repeating itself, one thing that i'm afraid of is it comes out worst then before.<br />i'm afraid this will get me over emotional and will end up worst then last time.<br />the past shall haunt me over and over again.<br />this i hate it the most.<br />i hate the feeling of getting into a deep shit.<br />if getting into a deep shit but somehow can find the way to clean the shit is not the problem the only problem is i'm afraid that, that shit cant be cleared 100%.<br />haiz...sad,depression,stress and all the emotions are running and playing games in my heart.<br />i think my heart doesnt even know how to handle this.<br />i just feel that this will end up worst then before.<br />maybe it will end up in a good way or the bad way.<br />the feeling i which cant control is sadness and depression and it is taking over my whole body and corrupt my mind sooner or later.<br />how wish there is an angel here to help me out....<br />how wish there is someone which i can trust 100%...<br /><br /></span></span></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/1939059051712469083-211777946750260548?l=kyo19690.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Lon3ly Noobzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02915406489436831144noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1939059051712469083.post-3916647076940149482009-03-09T07:29:00.000-07:002009-03-09T07:57:59.585-07:00My Lif3<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_pqvwc3wuOHk/SbUtJC9umdI/AAAAAAAAACY/PIvwTbumTXI/s1600-h/Cream+Chicken+with+Herb+Crouton-+week+5.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5311200968991218130" style="WIDTH: 200px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 150px" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_pqvwc3wuOHk/SbUtJC9umdI/AAAAAAAAACY/PIvwTbumTXI/s200/Cream+Chicken+with+Herb+Crouton-+week+5.JPG" border="0" /></a> <<<br /><div><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_pqvwc3wuOHk/SbUs1dPymUI/AAAAAAAAACQ/Pi-EzXCllwk/s1600-h/Steam+dilled+turban+of+fish+accompany+with+leek+%26+tomato+confit+perfected+with+saute+herb+new+potato-week+3.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5311200632448915778" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 200px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 150px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_pqvwc3wuOHk/SbUs1dPymUI/AAAAAAAAACQ/Pi-EzXCllwk/s200/Steam+dilled+turban+of+fish+accompany+with+leek+%26+tomato+confit+perfected+with+saute+herb+new+potato-week+3.JPG" border="0" /></a> " Steam dilled turban of fish accompany with leek & tomato confit perfected with saute herb new potato"<br /><br /><div><br /><br /><br /><div><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">well well....</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">what can i blog about my life...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">well...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">recently there's new chef came into my college and he sucked like hell...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">let me tell you guys why he's like this...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">the reason is...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">as a lecturer he fails because although his real life as a executive chef{very high ranking} doesn't mean that he can be a good lecturer...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">but some how he manage to enter my college and teach us...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">which i strongly agree that he fails as a lecturer...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">when we enter kitchen he supposed to guide us and teach us the do's and don'ts...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">but he was opposite of that...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">he rushed us and expect us to know everything {my batch is a junior batch in the legend cafe}...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">we are so stunt on that day and just let him shoot us...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">well all of us are badly wounded because of him...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">felt like chopping him and stuff him inside the oven...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">we couldnt even do our platting{which is very important for us}</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">because he took away all of our jobs in the kitchen...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">we would really want to help out with the platting for our own knowledge but he just grab everything from our hands and continue with his scolding...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">i were damn bloody pissed...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">i really want my old lecturer back...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">i cant learn much with this bloody ass hole...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">he think that my batch is like the senior batch{smoking batch}</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">but actually we are just the opposite...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">my batch does not smoke and none of them does...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">its like not making any sense..</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">and when we try telling him the truth he will shout "stop telling me lies/reasons"</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">he always think that we are all the same character but actually we are not...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">our seniors is 1 type... my batch is the 2nd type...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">how can he just jumble up both together...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">we have good comments from the previous chef that we have great teamwork...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">but for the new chef is like having a negative thinking about us since the 1st time he saw us...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">its really a nightmare, well the difference is nightmare is not true and we are in a reality world...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">but in the end we had nice food which all sold out including our demo pieces... we had nothing left to serve on that day...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">and we had nothing to eat as well...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">badly injured on the insid<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_pqvwc3wuOHk/SbUslIHhsWI/AAAAAAAAACI/O-0d4U4PfuI/s1600-h/Mocha+Mousse+Imperial-+week+5.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5311200351899201890" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_pqvwc3wuOHk/SbUslIHhsWI/AAAAAAAAACI/O-0d4U4PfuI/s320/Mocha+Mousse+Imperial-+week+5.JPG" border="0" /></a>e...on that day.</span></em></strong></div><div><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">great food and nice taste trust me...</span></em></strong></div><div><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">^.^v</span></em></strong></div><div><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;"></span></em></strong> </div><div><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;"></span></em></strong> </div><div><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;"></span></em></strong> </div><div><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;"></span></em></strong> </div><div><strong><em><span style="color:#333333;">Mocha Mousse Imperial>>>>>>>>>>>></span></em></strong></div></div></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/1939059051712469083-391664707694014948?l=kyo19690.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Lon3ly Noobzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02915406489436831144noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1939059051712469083.post-27132392150578779772009-02-23T06:27:00.000-08:002009-02-23T06:51:20.415-08:00~Emo!ng!!!!<strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">This days I feel like I am just a no body to anyone...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">i keep asking myself who am I?</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">but there's always no answer to that question which always stikes in my mind...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">I keep wondering how am i going to solve this big question inside my head which won't disappear...???</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">its really weird to have this in my mind...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">I often feel this feelings when im always with my friends...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">im not sure wether they are my true friends or not...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">well for now i take them as my real friends that is...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">sooner or later the content of the book will review itself{i guess so}</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">why do i feel like a no body even though im with my family...?</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">isnt this just too much?</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">well i dont really know whats happening to me but some how i feel really angry at times even though no one is in the wrong...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">i cant really control myself now a days...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">when i feel i want to burst out in flames i just go ahead not like the last time i used to control my anger and frustration...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">but now its like a different me inside me, its like i dont feel the same...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">this couldnt be PMS...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">well im only 19 years old though...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">this is seriously getting out of control and i dont like it when im out of control...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">some how i felt like i should just dissapear from the world...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">its not like anybody shall notice me missing right???</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">im just a no body neways...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">a nobody that shall never be remembered by anyone,anywho or anywhere on earth...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">im so lost right now...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">1st is the feeling of being left out then comes along with the feeling of 'im just a nobody' then comes along with th anger feeling {just felt like killing anyone who bothers me even though friends and family} later on comes with the 'i should dissapear for everyone's good sake'....</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">those all this makes any sences???</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">those all this combined and make up a story line which i should follow???</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">those all this feelings are telling me that i should do something???</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">those all this feelings meant anything to me or to this whole entire universe???</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">now im really confusing myself...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">but i cant ignore it...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">what if it gets worst or something negative to what i do in real life...???</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">well this is only a feeling...havent done it in real life yet right...???</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">well hopefully my rage will not burst out of me...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">somehow i just need to be known by some one...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">some one who knows how i feel and could help me...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">now...i feel that all of my fellow friends had distant away from me...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">thats how i feel...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">and im feeling really lonely...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">my family...is not considered a family{it has already broken up since when i was born}</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">well...hopefully it brakes up is not because of me...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">if it was me...maybe im the one who is at fault and i, myself cant accept this and maybe i shouldnt even exist in this world...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">well a family...if one's not happy the whole family tumbles down...this is what i understand of the word family which is true...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">because thats my family...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">in the end its just me and my blog to keep me company...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">well...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">friends...family..who ever...what ever...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#33cc00;">how wish there is some one or something that understands me and my feelings...</span></em></strong><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/1939059051712469083-2713239215057877977?l=kyo19690.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Lon3ly Noobzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02915406489436831144noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1939059051712469083.post-75955552717654273352008-11-22T09:09:00.000-08:002008-11-22T09:15:45.442-08:00argh WORK stress<strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">owh~</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">here goes another day me at work....</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">there the buzy day has begun....</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">shit had the most tiring day...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">how wish this thing will end...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">how wish work can be easier just a little bit...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">i know im a slow learner but please pretty please dont burden me so much...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">argh...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">those big bos think they are so great and grand comm'on im just a student and its like standing up for 10 hours straight and far far away from home???</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">oh gosh...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">well i got 2 hours break of course...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">well maybe thats work life...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">but how wish the chef will not call me to do that much work while there are so many staff around him to help out...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">why me..??</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">i don't get it...</span></em></strong><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/1939059051712469083-7595555271765427335?l=kyo19690.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Lon3ly Noobzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02915406489436831144noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1939059051712469083.post-19898037415746429522008-11-13T03:07:00.000-08:002008-11-13T03:15:32.770-08:00friends,will it last???<span style="color:#c0c0c0;">will friendship really last...???</span><br /><span style="color:#c0c0c0;">well in my point of view i don't think that is true...</span><br /><span style="color:#c0c0c0;">well lets say a high school group were so close and when they go their seperate ways, they will forget to contact each other and don't even one to try contacting each other...</span><br /><span style="color:#c0c0c0;">well maybe thats my case but some how i think its true that friendship doesn't last forever its just a one time off type of relationship...</span><br /><span style="color:#c0c0c0;">well dats what new friends are there for right...</span><br /><span style="color:#c0c0c0;">they are something like a backup...</span><br /><span style="color:#c0c0c0;">people like me who doesn't belive in friendship will never last will always get new clans and being ditch by others not us ditch our friends its the other way round...</span><br /><span style="color:#c0c0c0;">gosh...friendship is important but it will never last thats for sure...</span><br /><span style="color:#c0c0c0;">i always coll my old friends out to meet fine...but they never call me out anywhere wow...thats friends i guess...</span><br /><span style="color:#c0c0c0;">hmm...</span><br /><span style="color:#c0c0c0;">anyways i am going to stop calling my old clan out and start a new life at my new place thats for sure...</span><br /><span style="color:#c0c0c0;">bye bye old clan and welcome my new clan</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/1939059051712469083-1989803741574642952?l=kyo19690.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Lon3ly Noobzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02915406489436831144noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1939059051712469083.post-75998071441565538072008-09-29T23:37:00.000-07:002008-09-29T23:42:37.579-07:00ah finally its over<strong><span style="color:#666666;">finally my finals are over...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#666666;">but soon there will be another one of the miserable exam again and this time its going to be worst then the first one....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#666666;">don't know how much longer i can take this one...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#666666;">just one test and so many havoc has been created....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#666666;">i wonder...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#666666;">but all i know im still young and i can still enjoy...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#666666;">but later on i shall step into the outside world and suffer alot compare to now...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#666666;">now just let it be and i shall just carry on and not worrying anything YET</span></strong><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/1939059051712469083-7599807144156553807?l=kyo19690.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Lon3ly Noobzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02915406489436831144noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1939059051712469083.post-91142331049504499822008-09-07T03:14:00.000-07:002008-09-07T03:21:46.122-07:00ASSIGNMENT,PRESENTATION IT ALL SUX!!!!it sux....<br />it sucked<br />OMG why cant it a little bit easier...<br />its just so hard especially in groups...<br />its so hard to communicate with each other...<br />dont you guys understand english for havent sake please read more english books...<br />buck up guys...<br />how can you guys not understand basic english...<br />further more in culiary arts are all in english...<br />english is an universal language you guys...<br />please....<br />im begging you guys...<br />communication is esential...<br />i hate it when you guys didnt communicate at all...<br />how wish der is solo so that you guys can just do your own stuff and i can do my own stuff when you guys fail you fail alone and it wont drag me along with you...<br />but now is a different story...<br />if you fail i'l fail along....<br />im giving my best ideas and trying to make things work in this damn bloody fucking group presentation and yet you guys are not doing it properly...<br />why cant you all just make up your minds....<br />i dont understand you guys at all....<br />argh!!!!!!!!!!!<br />how wish it was a solo presentation<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/1939059051712469083-9114233104950449982?l=kyo19690.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Lon3ly Noobzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02915406489436831144noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1939059051712469083.post-65136709403603662722008-08-20T04:20:00.000-07:002008-08-20T04:28:31.649-07:00killer<strong><em><span style="color:#666666;">why does it seemed so simple to do while you are seeing it...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#666666;">but when you do that thing...its damn bloody freaking hard to do...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#666666;">why does it happens lke that....</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#666666;">why...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#666666;">this world is not fair...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#666666;">why cant you just make up your mind...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#666666;">dont be racist,dont be calculative,dont judge a person by his/her looks, dont be choosy...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#666666;">i just hate you...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#666666;">why cant you mark the test straight....</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#666666;">which one is the best then just give the bloody stupid marks....</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#666666;">who deserves it then just let it be...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#666666;">give 'em' a full mark or something...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#666666;">dont give high marks for all those people that just shoot to do things...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#666666;">just because he is good in sweet talking and so on it doesnt means that you give him more marks....</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#666666;">its so......not fair...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#666666;">how wish i could just kill you...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#666666;">its just not fair at all....</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#666666;">he doesnt even put his whole heart and soul into the things that he does and some how he got like the 3rd highest...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#666666;">what the fuck is happening man....</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#666666;">i hate you very much...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#666666;">its just NOT FAIR......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!</span></em></strong><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/1939059051712469083-6513670940360366272?l=kyo19690.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Lon3ly Noobzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02915406489436831144noreply@blogger.com0